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Thursday, 14 May 2009

  • Nothing poetic, just a rant

    Why didn't you get the fucking abortion while you had the chance, dad told me everything. I know how much you regret it, I also know how much you act like you don't. I guess what you're trying to make clear is that since I'm here I can't have a life of my own right? That for some unknown reason I'm not trusted. Everything I do has to be questioned. I know that grandma hates me too.. it's a double standard, she loves all of her other grandkids, but I'm the exception, because I'm his child. While you have to remind me about it constantly. Your words aren't truthful, you know nothing about me, I want out. 

Sunday, 05 April 2009

  • teenagers without a purpose or direction. we don't owe anyone a fucking
    explanation. excatly just let us do our thing and it'll work out...if we fuck up
    we'll learn. and let us be us because nobody else will. let us be us now while
    we have time to change it if its not who we want to be. eactly let us make
    mistakes and learn from them. let us stand on our own so we can when we're
    alone...they're our mistakes let us make them don't shelter us from what you
    think is wrong let us find out. and don't put pressure on us we aren't going to
    turn out like you and we don't want to we want to learn from your problems and
    break cycles that cause pain we want to rise above and be who we believe is
    right to live the way that will help us to be better and not like them to
    liberate not oppress

Wednesday, 18 March 2009

  • anger

    I hope you realize what I've become

    With you trying to run my life,

    By saying it's for the best,

    “No you can't do that”

    “No boys, no lying”


    Lets get this story straight

    The last time I listened to you

    Was before some life changing events

    Around the time I was ten

    So screwed up,

    That I no longer will listen

    Listen to anything you say

    Because it's better to go behind your back,

    It's easier,

    A lot easier.


    If theres no conformation to your ways,

    Then they're shunned from your life

    In every possible way

    It doesn't matter if you're related to them

    It doesn't matter if its for the best

    Its not correct to just forget anybody

    To push them away because they're not

    How you wanted them to be


    I see the truth now,

    You did that with him

    And now you've decided

    To do it with me,

    But in a different way

    If I'm cut off from the world

    I cant do anything wrong

    Right?

    Wrong.

    Theres one comfort..


Sunday, 08 March 2009

  •  

    No More..

    Now everything is about being broken and alone,
    No happiness allowed.
    Everything changes at the drop of a hat
    Your emotions run wild and your heartbreaks
    Just to realize that nothing will last
    It makes you wonder why even try?

    What is this life, full of spite and disgust
    Maybe if people would put their whole hearts into things,
    And not worry about what 'could' or would happen,
    Things would be different,
    Less walls would be put up,
    Less fears about broken hearts,
    No more lying or hate.
    People would be honest and
    Not play with peoples emotions.

    But in this world, the honesty has died,
    along with the happiness and fairytale endings,
    It's no more.

Saturday, 28 February 2009

  • from a distance

     

    From a Distance

    I admired you from a distance,
    Not in the least creepy, I-want-to-stalk-you way;
    But in the you're perfect in every way.
    How I wish I could be with you,
    To say, hello, such a simple word to say
    Oh, that I wish I could say, but no way.

    No way is it possible,
    No way can the loneliness be changed,
    No way is that going to happen.

    There's too much hurt
    and not enough love,
    Too much has been changed to a different way,
    Everything changes but nothing begins,
    then the story ends.